Have you seen the movie the Truman Show? If not, you are totally not going to get this post so feel free to return to your Facebook feed…
Remember that scene towards the end of the movie where he (Truman) is on the boat headed out to sea? As viewers, we know that he is headed towards freedom, towards the truth, but he doesn’t know that. All he knows is that he has had enough of the life that he knew… and he suspects that there might be something different awaiting him “out there”.
Before he reaches “the end” (or the truth as the case may be), he is tested… my oh my is he tested. The waves! The rain! The lightning! Never mind his deep fear of water. But, in spite of all of this he perseveres… even lashing himself to his boat, determined to see his journey through.
A few moments ago, I came out of a meditation journey. The intention for the journey was to “see what is next for my career”… and the first vision I saw was Truman, lashed to that boat and hanging on for dear life.
That is where I feel I am at right now – in nearly all areas of my life.
It has been more than two months since I posted on this blog. It has been even longer since I have done anything to really promote my coaching practice or move it forward. I know that by letting things “sit” for so long that I could potentially be committing “career suicide”, but I can’t seem to find the motivation, clarity, time, or energy to do anything about it!
I keep telling myself that it is okay because EVERYTHING in my life is still in transition. But we are going on 10 months now. TEN MONTHS. And I am getting tired. Oh soooo tired.
How much longer until the storm ends? Until the waves settle down? Until I reach dry land or wherever this journey is taking me? I have no choice but to lash myself to the boat and ride it out. I have long ago passed the point of no return.
What is next for Maren/Marebare Necessities/FIERCE Integrity? I have no friggin’ clue.
Why am I writing all of this? Because it’s the truth. It’s my truth. And while I might not have much else to offer you right now, I still have that.
Here’s to the journey and to knowing that “this too shall pass”.